If you think I am going all senti on you guys, relax! Not likely. This is more a reflection of how I have changed in the last 10 months or so - some changes I made willingly, some happened to me whether I liked them or not and I was dragged kicking and screaming into a few more…10 months ago, if someone had asked me about kids, I had two replies - one was that I already had four, Buddy, Rocky, Sammy and Raju - the second was that I would have a baby when I can put him in a crate with food and water and go to work and not worry about him for the rest of the day. All my husband needed to get me to change my mind was a bottle of wine (I know, I am not too expensive) and a good massage.
Now when I look at myself in the mirror, I can barely recognize myself (I will kill the person who points out it must be because of the dark circles under my eyes from lack of sleep the last 5 weeks). I actually feel pretty maternal towards my son (I am allowed to stretch words to mean whatever I want them to mean on my blog) and I don’t even mind the hour-long feeding sessions every three hours, as long as they give me the chance to catch up on my reading. So far, I haven’t dropped my baby on his head even once - I probably changed about 200 diapers so far and spent 514.75 hours feeding him (not that I am counting or anything).
The most surprising thing is that inspite of my chronic backache from all the feeding, the lack of sleep and the lack of anything close to a life of my own, I am extremely happy with how my life is at this point. I see my cutie smile at me once, and I am his for this life and more. I grumble at him when he wakes me up at 11:00 PM, 12:30 AM, 2:00 AM, 3:00 AM and 5:00 AM - sometimes all in the same night - I threaten to ground him for life, but then suddenly when he flashes that little toothless grin of his as soon as I show up at his crib is more than enough to make up for everything. I feel so in love with this tiny little baby, I sometimes feel my heart will burst - do I sound like a new mom now? It must be the sleep-deprived, addled brain of mine talking :)
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.. and now lets all read the first sentence of this post again.
heheheh.
cool though.
Posted by: anya at June 26, 2004 5:14 PM
Actually, I find it very similar to what my wife said when our daughter was born. She was really nervous about “bonding” with the newborn (what if it looked like a lizard?!), but the instant she saw her, she fell in love, and has been like that ever since. More here on that subject.
As for me, I’m shopping for shotguns…
Posted by: moe at June 26, 2004 7:38 PM
That one sigh of being content from your child when s/he falls asleep with a full stomach is worth all the sleepless nights and backaches. ;)
Posted by: Parag at June 26, 2004 10:58 PM
Momhood sounds like fun for you inspite of all the trouble the little one is giving you :)
Posted by: Patrix at June 27, 2004 12:10 PM
Very sweet post!
Posted by: MD at June 27, 2004 3:53 PM
Anya, I have no idea what you are talking about :nice:
Moe, nice post - I will be teaching my son how to dodge shotgun bullets ;)
Parag, the little ones are a little too good at manipulating us, aren’t they!
Patrix, it has definitely been a brand new adventure for me :)
Thanks, MD!
Posted by: Shanti at June 28, 2004 10:16 AM
That post made me go, “Awwwww…” :nice:
Posted by: Sameer at June 29, 2004 7:41 AM
Shanti: You think this is manipulating, wait for another year and you will find a whole different (manipulating) personality in Neel. We are going through that right now. Ashwini is 15 months old.
Posted by: Parag at June 29, 2004 9:38 AM
Sameer, that was definitely the effect I was going for :)
Parag, we are in for it now, aren’t we? We have given birth to our masters-for-life :beam:
Posted by: Shanti at June 29, 2004 11:31 AM
Came here from Patrix’s blog. Many many warm wishes to you and your family… may god bless your little one with good health and happiness always.
And enjoy this contented feeling till it lasts!!!! LOL wait till he’s teething, then crawling around, then running around, then breaking things, then school admissions…. ufff!!!!!! Errrr ‘enjoy’ being the keyword. :-D
Posted by: Wonderbug at June 30, 2004 3:41 AM
Thank you so much, Wonderbug :) I am still trying very hard to look for silver linings behind all the feeding and diaper change clouds ;)
Posted by: Shanti at June 30, 2004 8:46 AM
:beam:
Like others before, AWWWWW
And why havent we heard from Neel yet. Whats the world’s youngest blogger up to now?
Figured out WP or MT yet?
Posted by: The Blog Magister at July 1, 2004 11:34 PM
He is in the process of figuring MT out - we should be hearing from him pretty soon ;)
Posted by: Shanti at July 2, 2004 12:53 PM
You sound like a great mom!
Congratulations! (I’ve been woefully out of the loop and just found out NOW)
Oh, and don’t worry. You catch up on the sleep later on….around the time the child hits, oh….12.
Posted by: Da Goddess at July 2, 2004 1:20 PM
Thank you Goddess :)
12 sounds pretty good…I think :(
Posted by: Shanti at July 2, 2004 1:55 PM
My sister who recently had a baby says that motherhood really taught her the meaning of ‘selflessness’ !!!
And she’s as in love with her baby as you are with yours :)
Posted by: Dina at July 4, 2004 1:06 PM
Dina, if there is a man in your life to whom you are really just your breasts and he wakes you up at odd times in the night for 6 weeks in a row and counting and you haven’t strangled him yet…that is “selflessness” or “stupidity” depnding on your point of view :tongue3:
Posted by: Shanti at July 4, 2004 4:31 PM
Dina, if there is a man in your life to whom you are really just your breasts
Don’t some husbands fit that description? ;)
Posted by: MadMan at July 5, 2004 12:34 AM
“some husbands”, MadMan? I would say most husbands and all boyfriends :)
Posted by: Shanti at July 5, 2004 8:40 PM